I can hardly believe He chose to use me. He chose me to be His ambassador. Wow. I’m just in awe of what He did today.
I was back out at the JFA exhibit (see my last post) and talked to many people in spite of the cold (record lows).
One conversation in particular stuck out to me. It started within probably a half hour of our arrival and ended about a half hour before I left. Now, it wasn’t on-going for that whole time. Here’s how it went:
I went out to my favorite spot – the free speech board – when I saw someone stop to write something. I was a ways away so I just prayed that he would stay long enough for me to get out to him. I didn’t have to worry – this guy wasn’t even close to finished when I got there. I began to read what he wrote. It started out “on a cold February morning I drove my girlfriend to an abortion clinic…” my heart went out to him immediately and I just knew I had to talk to him. By the time he finished, though, I wasn’t so sure. The “story” ended with a strange, absurd twist – a rap poem from the mouth of the unborn.
He stood up to walk away and I stopped him, “excuse me, can I ask you why you decided to write that?” he looked startled, and looked at his clock, “uh, well I don’t really have time to explain…” he had to get to class and said he’d try to come back in a few hours. I told him to find me and that was that…I wasn’t sure I’d ever see him again.
Fast forward about three hours. I came out from eating lunch and went back…guess where? 🙂 and guess who was there? Well, he was back, and talking to two other pro-lifers, one of which is on the JFA staff. We were taught not to “gang up on” people since it can be overwhelming to be talking to too many people from the other side, so I hung back, just within hearing. He spotted me and waved me over. He told the others about our encounter earlier, and they left us to continue the conversation. I tried to take up where the others had left off, but he stopped me. “what were you going to ask me earlier?” he wanted to know, so I repeated the question.
He talked for awhile about being an artist, and wanting to express how he was inspired by the exhibit. He talked about “zig” and “zag”, contrast, shock value, and other stuff like that. Setting up a pattern, then drastically going against that pattern. I can’t say I agree with him, but at least I got to where I understood. The conversation wrapped up, so I brought it back around to the unborn. He didn’t really like my segue (or lack thereof) and I told him we could keep talking about art if he wanted, but I had come out to talk about babies. He was ok with that, and told me what he thought of the people he had been talking with before (he thought they did well, but that their reasoning was kind of circular), then he checked the time. He told me he had to go soon to pick up his son from school, and I wasn’t really sure where to go with the conversation having only about five minutes, but he gave me the answer. He said, “I have my aborted child to think of.” wow, bombshell! He said I had four minutes to present my view. I immediately asked how he and the woman (the mother) were doing. It caught him completely off guard. He seemed to be expecting me to attack him and tell him how terrible he was. When he recovered, he said they were both doing fine (I had my doubts…). I offered some more comfort, and asked him some more questions. I could tell that he had thought a lot about the abortion, and even though he tried not to show it, I could see it had affected him deeply. I closed the conversation by thanking him for talking to me. I told him that I loved hearing about the art, and that I appreciated him coming back, then he left.
I watched him walk away until he was out of sight, and prayed that God would keep leading him along, bringing him to more people who would lead him to a place of ultimate healing. I also prayed for the woman involved.
I am so amazed that God would entrust me with this conversation, and that He trusted me to reach out and represent Him to this man. That was a totally awesome experience!
Let me know if you want to hear more stories of how I saw God work today!